I really had planned to kick off the new year with a updated dadarocks. well – its looks nice and took some sweet time getting the website looking this nice. Then Monday happened – I was told I was being downsized… Being let go really knocks the wind out of you… it wasnt something I had planned on (but who are we kidding who plans for that to happen?).
So here we go 2013 time to make some big changes… not just based in career but pretty much everywhere in my life… yes I know I’ve said it before but now I’m serious. Things will change… I’m looking forward to it because really it should have happened a long time ago…. and it really has to change!
Over the weekend I purchased a vitamix blender — its not just a blender its the Infinity of blenders. My brother-in-law Tim has lost over 75 lbs in the last year using a combination of things but one of the most helpful was the Green Drink. So between my wife watching too much Dr. Oz and my Brother-in-law I’ve found myself the owner of a vitamix with a plan to start getting healthy in 2013 since it clearly didnt stick after my heart attack.
I love everyone that talks about new years resolutions — I have always been a believer in just do it whenever you need to — well I look at myself and I see that I need too… I’ve put on all the weight I lost and maybe a few extra pints of ice cream (I mean pounds). I know you will all say so whats the exercise plan – first I need to start eating healthier then I’ll get slowly into exercise and all the fun stuff after that…
The one promise I made this new years was to really look into making a bucket list… I dont have one – I actually dont have a will either but thats a conversation for another day. I rattled off somethings quickly the other day.
I was talking with a friend recently about the fears that I have as a father and as a man. Its not really something simple that we talk about all the time (as men or just people in general). We joke about death by using items like bucket lists to really talk about the things we want to get done before we’re gone. Josh (@DadStreet) and I talked about a bit of this on LateNightParents this week, when we talked about the Jackie O recordings and what we’d leave behind for our children (I’ll pick this point up again later).
I know by this point you are already thinking its time to click to a different site – something shinny and happy… you’re also thinking WTF adam I read dadarocks for the light stuff the funny the good – as I said months ago – I’m going to try to balance – so stick with me on this one.
If you’re not a close personal friend or been around the few and far between tweets – I had a bit of a scare last year, I had a heart attack. Yup, no history of issues… typical guy I avoided doctors unless there was something wrong. Everything was just like what the TV shows say it will be like – a crushing feeling on your chest and some arm pain. Fast forward 8 months the pain is gone…. but there is something new that I never really had before is the fear of what if I did die, what if I have another heart attack tomorrow (no one knows).
Add to that the typical family man stuff of making a living, enjoying my family, balancing work/life, juggling family/friends – now add to this the fear of what if.
I really dont know – I try to live for today – I’ve been trying to push away all the fears. Yah I have issues I know… I get that. I also get that I’m not letting this fear cripple me, but I do want to plan for something – just incase. All the legal stuff is good to go (wills, insurance, ect) but what about a message to the loved ones (this is what Josh and I were talking about) I have had on my to do list to create some videos for my wife and child should I go the way of the dinosaur and I really wonder how other deal? if others plan? do you write journals? do some recordings?
